in five short weeks...

I'll know how you look. Your smell will be so familiar and you will have had a million kisses.

Your picture is on our freezer and every time I see your little cheeks and the top of your head I can't wait to snuggle with you for the first time and get to know my little baby girl.

Your big brother talks about you all the time. He loves to look at your sonogram pictures and ask when you will be out of my tummy. He has certain cars he is willing to share with you and he even said you can ride the honking car.

We are all preparing for you. It seems like a lifetime before you are here but time is flying by also and it seems like we are running out of time.

I love you, my little baby girl, even though I haven't even met you yet.

I'll miss having you inside me. Lately you have been coming out one side when I lay down, while kicking my hip bone on the other side. You like to move your hand or foot across my belly button, sometimes with a lot of force, but mommy doesn't mind. I think you like us being up all night because thats when you move the most. When your Daddy is around and talking you like to kick sporadically almost like you're trying to get his attention.

You have a very excited family, all waiting for you.

Hurry up and pass the next five weeks!!!

cutting the strings

Tomorrow I am going to church alone. I get to go to the new place to hear their pastor speak. I cannot describe how good it feels to be free of the old one. Every time I think of having to go back there I feel the anger coming on.

So, anyway. My mom is going to kill me. She sent me some stuff from the motherhood maternity store and I exchanged it. She always thinks I need a night gown and I hate them. I cannot sleep with that thing wrapped around me, so I took it back and got some stuff I need.

I don't mean to be ungrateful, but I always have to have a system and truthfully, I don't want any gifts because I have a list in my head of things I need and things I don't need or want and I'm just so overwhelmed with it all I don't have room up there for other things.

I know, I'm selfish and rude. :(

Today I shoved a fork up my thumbnail and it still hurts like crazy. I was so annoyed because I was trying to unload the dishwasher and I was so distracted by the kids that I wasn't paying attention and of course they didn't care that I was hurt they just followed me into the bathroom asking for more food and it just drove me crazy. I'm going to go insane when the girls are out of school for two weeks!!

So all we have left is Christmas, then I only have two weeks of work then two weeks before my baby girl is here. I was awake for a little bit last night and she was moving all around so I was rubbing my belly. I think I can feel her elbows and knees sometimes, theres just a little corner that separates into two parts inside me and sometimes she will be still when I'm rubbing where she is and it feels like we're already bonding.

I'm getting really excited for her to come, almost moreso than for Christmas.

Tonight I have been cooking dinner for an hour, and I'm ready to be done!! I made lemon chicken and corn, with baked apples and sponge cake for dessert.

I used to make the cake all the time when we were first married, and I loved it. I'm excited for it to be done tonight.

Besides that, I washed 5 loads of clothes so we have stuff to wear for the cold week ahead. I'm excited for the colder weather, finally!!

first blog of December

Yesterday, my Christmas shopping began. What an exciting time!

I usually shop online but the stores with free shipping were out of everything I knew I wanted so I had to get out of the house for a while.

Here's the rundown: I went to toys r us and got jake the speed racer helmet and steering wheel that make noise, and let see, oh a mach 6 with a movie scene inside this little view finder thing, and a double pack of the mach 5 and racer x cars, a sponge bob bath set, and a speed racer light up poncho, and I think that might be it, besides the video game which I think I already mentioned previously.

Sage got a dish set, glow station, drawing pad with colored pencils and paint brushes with paint inside, socks with the individual toes, since I lost my (old) ones as soon as she found them... and one of those bath sets with the soap and stuff. Thats all I remember right now...

I got Mycah two Junie B books, dishes, Hannah Montana brush set, the same paint brushes as Sage but a different coloring book, a Hannah Montana dress up set, Prince Caspian (movie) and something else I can't remember right now lol.

I figured since I was given the opportunity to shop I might as well get some things for #4, so I got her an outfit, a sheet and blanket set that is the tiddlywinks ladybug theme, some soap diapers and wipes.

So I spent about 10 total hours walking around Target Friday, including work the night before.

I have ot say that I was not looking forward to Thursday night at work, I thought about calling out so many times but since I missed a day last week, I couldn't do it. The night turned out fine, even though it was someone I usually don't get along with mixed with two trucks. I was proud of myself that night because although I was in stationery until about 7:15 or so, it only took me about 4 hours to push it all. It was one of those nights where the repacks kept coming so I had very little time to start pushing, I remembered from my last mistake and got two pallets for backstock, and by the time my offsite came and I sorted out all the sporting goods from my repacks (urrgh) and the few boxes of Christmas, it was break time. Then I put the backstock I did manage to get during the truck unload on a pallet and did half a cart of pens and it was lunch, so by the time I got started it was almost 5 and I was done about two hours later.

About 6, Karli was ready to go. I had this bump right under my rib cage that was her bootie I guess, but she was sticking out in such a way that I couldn't bend forward, so when I was driving if I was going to turn right, like at my exit, it was near impossible to lean forward to see around the car that was waiting to turn left. Boy oh boy. But, I have less than 50 days now. I can't believe it. I'm fine with the idea of leaving work for a while, my brain is wrapped around that just fine, but as far as having a baby in the house...nope, not processing.

The whole pregnancy thing seems a little routine and normal, but I am going to have a major kind of thing going on when I can't move for two weeks (basically) and I'll be woken up every few hours to feed someone.

I'm totally looking forward to it, though.

So now for parent teacher conferences:

Sage's went fine. She is a perfectionist and over achiever, which we already knew. The teacher didn't use those words, but I live with her, so take it from me. :) She had 2s, 3s and 4s on everything on her report card.

Mycah had all 1s and 2s. Not so good but I was expecting it. She will never be a perfect student, but thats okay with me.

I don't have a solid stance on education, really. I think some people get it and some don't. Everyone has their own purpose in life and she will do something else great with her life besides making As on her tests.

I was a combination of them two. Well, like Sage I'm still pretty anal about things. One example for her is that she always says "name, color, cut, paste" before she starts her homework, and once she forgot her name and you would have thought the world was about to explode.

But, I never made really good grades. i was always average and never cared to be on the honor rolls or anything of that sort. It seemed to be a lot of work and I wasn't that motivated.

So thats our family update...and now Armando is on...