so, yeah...

We got a package from my mom today. Well, we probably recieved it yesterday but were not aware of it until today.

She sent the girls some clothes and there were pajamas for Jake, among other things. They love to get packages from Nana. :)

She also said, when she was giving me the breakdown of what was coming, that she had "those pumpkin things that are like candy corn" I was able to reply "oh, yeah, they like those" while screaming with excitement inside my head. She has no idea that those things are like my boyfriend. Not that i have one, but I have a love for those things that almost passes my lifelong obsession with Reeses peanut butter cups.

I don't know if its just cravings or what but in several dreams I have been eating them or have a bag of them somewhere. i know, I have weird dreams. But they are just so good and I only get them once a year.

While we're on the subject of wonderful food, lately I have been wanting either ice cream or something to dip in milk. Cereal, pop tarts, cookies, donuts... all of that comes to mind, and we have none. Luckily this week is pay week.

I was telling the old hubs that I am going out with friends on Friday and he is worried about money so I siad if we go out to eat I will just get dessert... if I heard someone say that I would want to buy them food so they could eat, but have no worries about me. I NEED some good dessert. i have plenty of regular food at home to eat when I get back.

We have had times in the past when it seems like everything we do revolves around having the money to do it and these past weeks have been no different. I really don't like thinking or talking about money but I do like having it and making it and I guess you can't have one without the other.

I really feel like I deserve a night away from this place and from my kids (sorry, but its true) and I work plenty to afford dinner and a movie and a good time so I'm going and thats that.

And, since I know you read this, I know you didn't mean I don't deserve it but I'm just saying...

Anyway, I was looking up how to make your own halloween costumes and Mycah wants to be a spider and Sage wants to be a peacock. I'm going to try to get everything this weekend so I have time to make and fix everything. Jake has a costume from last year that he will wear.

And, because its Sunday, I have to add a church update. I went, not willingly at all. There are some people from a church that we used to go to that have started coming and everytime I see them I think they are what church people should look like. They seem so normal, not trying to be our parents, no advice, I talked to one for a few seconds and she was so much like someone I would want to be around it almost made me sick to my stomach knowing that we are stuck there with people who think we are little kids who need their guidance all the time.

I don't think they understand that we came out here to attend seminary, not to be church members. They expect that we put them first in most things and if we're not completely happy every Sunday they think we need a meeting and we have all these problems in our marriage.

I watch Jon and Kate plus 8 a lot and i really agree with what they say, when they argue in public, etc, they say they don't have time to be polite when the kids are running around and they are trying to get somewhere, etc. While I try not to yell across stores at my husband and stuff like that, it makes perfect sense to me because we have lived it. Not with 8, but with three which is plenty when they are small.

Anyway, so, I know we will not be there forever which I am so glad about but it is definitely the one place I don't care if I ever go back to. Its a shame when I'd rather be locked in Target for 6 hours a night than go to church for 2 hours a week. Just saying.