concerning consistency...

We're about to get some around here.

I'm so tired of being the only one who cleans and also the one who gets blamed for everything. I'm not sure if its because of the baby that makes me think my kids are capable of a lot more than what they do but I'm ready for them to start reaching their potential.

Sage reminds me of myself, which is a little scary because that could possibly mean I act a lot like my mom. Well, thats only bad in certain ways. My mom always acted like she knew what was best for us in all circumstances, so that made me rely on her and when she failed I got mad because she wouldn't let me just do it myself.

That being said, I know I'm not like that. Sage still blames me when things go wrong for her though and it makes me mad. Like today I gave her some change for her pennies campaign at school, and she got mad because I gave her too many dimes. I told her no more change from me then. Thats just one example of many I could share.

Then there's Jake. He's a new breed of child. Sometimes I have to ask him nicely to pick up all his toys and sometimes, like today, I have to be mean to see any results. His backtalking is out of control and will need to be fixed before kindergarten.

Mycah is always out of it and wastes food like no end. I need ot fix that too.

I blame myself for all of this. When I worked overnight I was always half asleep and didn't care about a lot of it. Now that I get decent sleep and have the energy to clean I don't want to be the only one to do so... along with the other problems.

Today is Karli's first physical. Hopefully she doesn't need shots. I think she gets them starting at two months. I hope Jake behaves himself and I get out of there in time to get the girls out of school.