horomones -- gotta love em

I have been really emotional these past few days.

I don't know why but I can sit and cry or laugh, I've been getting mad really easily and then getting over it.

There is a difference in the getting over it part, though. For girls, when its not the special time of the month, its your basic getting mad, when it is that time, you fell the rage and something has to be done to lift it or you can be mad for days. Its weird, i know.

Anyway, so... thats how I'm feeling with 4 days to go: weepy, excited, and in some sort of disbelief that it is actually so close.

I'm doing laundry and I saw my neighbor who just had a little girl two weeks or so ago, and I can't believe I will have one of my own to carry around in just a few days. Her older child is 15 months and she says her little sisters name almost in a sneeze, which I just love.

I'm watching Bye Bye Birdie. I cannot tell you the memories this brings back. Too many to name. My best friend when I was three years old and beyond used to have this movie and we watched it all the time at her house. She lived on a street called Windsor place which was perfect for me to remember because I loved Winnie the Pooh when I was growing up. She had stairs and we would put our pajamas on and slide down them on our stomachs. Her older sister was the the same age as my sister so we would go over there together almost every weekend. They also had a pantry that was full of good food. We never had a pantry or stairs until I was 13 and had stopped caring about such things.

My neighbor is going to help me clean on Tuesday so right now I feel under a major deadline to get it done so she doesn't see how messy my place usually is! But realistically I won't be able to get it done but its a process and I'm glad she is willing to help.